I can have doubts AND be on the right track. I can have doubts AND trust myself. I can want two contradictory things and know that choosing between them will sometimes be hard and that doesn’t mean I could have avoided having a choice in the first place.
On one hand, I want to unfetter my life and explore corners of it. On the other, I want to point my life towards goals and what kind of person I want to be. Without the feeling of floating aimlessly, and without the “shoulds” and the guilt of pressure.
I realized this is possible if I zoom out.
Ran out of time this morning since I had to go to the dentist. Hopefully you enjoy just as much with a Tuesday nightcap or your Wednesday coffee. Yesterday in a moment of annoyance after the garbage collector interrupted my minute-before-the-sixam-alarm-goes-off dreaming, I asked the internet about collection routes and schedules and if they’re always… Continue reading Tuesday Morning Coffee: Picking up Garbage
For the past three weeks, I have been traveling in South Africa and Namibia with my mom. We went seeking giraffes and (for me, anyway) a reset and break from a busy year. We came back with thousands of animal pictures as well as a greater sense of the often bleak and violent history of… Continue reading Tuesday Morning Coffee: Tribes
Ducks are distracting little critters. Why does putting them in a row elicit guilt?
Warning: foggy rambling ahead.
Much of what I write still stems from seeds planted and nurtured during runs... Lately, a lot of my thinking has been about running itself, and its role in my life and my relationship with it.
As a kid, I looked forward to the last day of school like anyone else. Through the intensity and stress of April and May exams and final essays, the prospect of three whole months stretching in front of me, filled only with a mindless summer job and gymnastics workouts, seemed a golden light pulling me… Continue reading Tuesday Morning Coffee: Crawling Back
In a world of click-bait and marketing and advice-giving (because now everyone with an internet connection is an expert), this is the time of year we get inundated with end-of-year lists. The best of, the worst of, top 10s, top 50s, of last year. The ways to make next year the greatest ever - what… Continue reading Tuesday Morning Coffee: That Time of Year
I must have hit the snooze button three times this morning. I don’t remember any of them (sorry, Josh). As I boiled water for the coffee, I spent ten minutes in meditation. I use the app Headspace, which has all sorts of guided meditations, including series focusing on a topic or theme. I’m in the… Continue reading Tuesday Morning Coffee Blog: Accepting